There’s just nights where I want to die, kill myself, overdose. Last night I wanted to take 20 pills and just swallow them all. They were in the palm of my hand, but I couldn’t do it. Why do such a selfish thing? It wasn’t worth it. It’s not healthy for me though, it’s been happening everyday where I just want to die. So much anger built up inside me that I just don’t want to deal with it anymore. I don’t think theres one night that goes by that I don’t think about suicide. But, I know I could never do it. I could never. But, I miss my fucking life. I just want it all back.

@1 year ago