Hi guys! I’m not new to Tumblr. I have another blog, but everyone from school tends to follow me on it. (marissapepe.tumblr.com) I get judged a lot and if I posted some stuff on my other Tumblr, I would get judged. I’ve been through more than an average fourteen year old teenager has been through. I bottle up inside, i’m average. I’ve thought about suicide multiple times, but I obviously didn’t come through. I cut, not for attention because it helps me. I drink because it makes me happy. I smoke because i’ve gone through so much shit and I feel like ciggarettes are my friend, even though there really killing me. Me and my family don’t get along at all, and it kills me inside. Me and my sister have a terrible relationship and it eats at me everyday. My brother died ten years ago as of yesterday and my whole family fell apart because of it. One of my other sisters lives in New York, shes twenty- four and doesn’t want to have anything to do with the family. Me and my father fight all the time, and sometimes he hits me. I have scratches from him and it scares me because I feel like one day he is going to snap and go way off. My dad has a drinking problem, i’ve gotten pulled over with him when I was 7, he got arrested right in front of my eyes. Me and my mother have a good relationship, but last year we moved into her boyfriends house and all I want to do is be alone. That’s all. I don’t want to associate with them because they piss me off so much. Did I mention, he has a drinking problem too. I don’t want pity, I just want all you followers to know who i am. This is my life, take me as I am.