This is my second blog, I wanted to make this one because everyone knew about my other one. My name is Marissa, read my blog, don't judge me by what I post, everything I post is real. I wouldn't lie about what I have gone through. I love all of my followers.(: Thanks for the follow!
Why do i like you? Why do i have to fall for you after my bestfriend goes out with you? What the hell is wrong with me? Why do i get butterflies around you, and the only thing i want to do is talk to you? Why is it that when you tell me I look pretty I have the biggest smile on my face? Why do you have to lead me on and then go out with some other girl? Why don’t you like me, and why do I like you?
@1 year agoThere’s just nights where I want to die, kill myself, overdose. Last night I wanted to take 20 pills and just swallow them all. They were in the palm of my hand, but I couldn’t do it. Why do such a selfish thing? It wasn’t worth it. It’s not healthy for me though, it’s been happening everyday where I just want to die. So much anger built up inside me that I just don’t want to deal with it anymore. I don’t think theres one night that goes by that I don’t think about suicide. But, I know I could never do it. I could never. But, I miss my fucking life. I just want it all back.
@1 year ago
Hi guys! I’m not new to Tumblr. I have another blog, but everyone from school tends to follow me on it. (marissapepe.tumblr.com) I get judged a lot and if I posted some stuff on my other Tumblr, I would get judged. I’ve been through more than an average fourteen year old teenager has been through. I bottle up inside, i’m average. I’ve thought about suicide multiple times, but I obviously didn’t come through. I cut, not for attention because it helps me. I drink because it makes me happy. I smoke because i’ve gone through so much shit and I feel like ciggarettes are my friend, even though there really killing me. Me and my family don’t get along at all, and it kills me inside. Me and my sister have a terrible relationship and it eats at me everyday. My brother died ten years ago as of yesterday and my whole family fell apart because of it. One of my other sisters lives in New York, shes twenty- four and doesn’t want to have anything to do with the family. Me and my father fight all the time, and sometimes he hits me. I have scratches from him and it scares me because I feel like one day he is going to snap and go way off. My dad has a drinking problem, i’ve gotten pulled over with him when I was 7, he got arrested right in front of my eyes. Me and my mother have a good relationship, but last year we moved into her boyfriends house and all I want to do is be alone. That’s all. I don’t want to associate with them because they piss me off so much. Did I mention, he has a drinking problem too. I don’t want pity, I just want all you followers to know who i am. This is my life, take me as I am.
